Nope. I am currently working on a few now and they’ll be up today sometime. I’ve just had some family problems, started my senior year, and have been strangely busy.
Don’t cry my dear. Let your boyfriend know what he said. If you don’t return the feelings then there isn’t anything to worry about. Stay calm. Everything will be okay.
thank you so much love <3
I love you so much why would you go on anon :( I hate when you guys do that… I want to know who to thank. But to all 2.5K of you, welcome to my family. I think we’d make a pretty damn good one.
The difference a few hours can make is surreal. S/O to my dad for choosing his new girlfriend and her kids over me. Father of the year right?
Well dear anon, I was trying not to this time around, but now I’m having a shot ton of issues with family. I mean my dad and his whole family are excluding me from family functions and my grandpa is in jail and my mom has no money to feed and clothe all of us and ugh. Life just keeps on throwing things at me and I don’t like it. So I’m sorry.
Oh my god congrats darling! I’m so happy for you (: and I love you too!
I’ve began to live by the motto “you never know until you try.” You should just tell him how you feel. What do you have to loose? If what you say causes a rift in the friendship, then the friendship isn’t as strong as you thought. But if he has feelings for you, imagine the relationship you’ll have. You have nothing to loose. Take a chance before it’s too late and you regret it.
I love you and the rest of my followers so much 💕
You don’t need anyone’s affection or approval in order to be good enough. When someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn’t actually about you. It’s about them and their own insecurities, limitations, and needs, and you don’t have to internalize that. Your worth isn’t contingent upon other people’s acceptance of you — it’s something inherent. You exist, and therefore, you matter. You’re allowed to voice your thoughts and feelings. You’re allowed to assert your needs and take up space. You’re allowed to hold onto the truth that who you are is exactly enough. And you’re allowed to remove anyone from your life who makes you feel otherwise.
Some of my favorites! First two people to message me there favorite youtuber (besides o2l) gets an imagine with them and is moved to the top of the imagine request list.
Kian Imagine for Lizzy
“Seriously Sam, I don’t want to see Kian. I never forgave him and I haven’t seen him since my dad relocated. Don’t make me do this.”
My cousin chuckled and smirked at me making me groan. We pulled up to a house, and two guys came running out.
"Jc! Ricky! I’ve missed you both so much. The new house looks great so far, oh and this is my cousin Lizzy, Liz, this is Jc Caylen, and this is Ricky Dillon."
I smiled and waved at the two of them before I was engulfed in a hug by them both. I laughed and they led us into the house. I guess they just moved in because there was still boxes and things everywhere.
I was looking around when I heard the glass door open, and heard Sam yell Kian.
I turned and saw Kian standing in the doorway. He was dripping wet and had a towel draped around his waist. I had always thought he was attractive, but as he had grown up he had became drop dead gorgeous. The top of his head was blonde, and he had been working out because his abs and arms were looking amazing.
"Sam my man, I’ve missed you bro what are you- Lizzy?"
I smile slightly and waved my hand at Kian as he stared at me with his mouth wide open. I cleared my throat awkwardly and he muttered something about going to change into something. I went into the bathroom and let myself cry a little bit.
Kian, Sam, and I were best friends at one point in our lives. Up until we were twelve. My mom had passed away only a few months before from cancer, and my dads job was making him relocate again which meant I had to go with him this time. At my going away party, Kian had told me the only reason he ever was friends with me was because Sam asked him to be. He said he hated me, and the reason my mom got cancer was because God knew she couldn’t handle me either. I had never been so angry with someone. My dad enrolled me in school in the new city we were in and I was constantly bullied until he put me into private school. No one, not even Sam knew what Kian had said to me.
I washed the tears off my face and went back out to the living room where all the guys were hanging out. We ended up watching a movie and then Ricky and Sam pinned me down while Jc tickled me. I went to get some water, and Kian followed behind me.
"Why do you hate me so much Lizzy? I apologised a million times. I tried calling, writing, emailing, and you never answered. We were best friends and I-"
The anger I had about the subject came rushing back to me and I punched him. The other guys were in the kitchen as I punched him and looked at me wide eyed. I began crying and Kian looked up at me stunned.
"Who tells a twelve year old girl, who’s mother had just died two and a half months before, that god took her mom because he knew she couldn’t handle having that girl as a daughter? Who tells their best friend that they were only friends with them for their cousins sake? You are the lowest scum on this earth Kian Lawley. I forgive you, but I will never be your friend again. I don’t hold grudges, but you literally killed me on the inside. Sam, don’t follow me."
I ran outside and kept running until I reached a small park. I let myself cry some more and then it began to rain. I didn’t care though. I sat under the slide and continued to let the emotions flow out of me.
I didn’t hear him as he walked up but Kian awkwardly say next to me. I glared at him and went to move away but he grabbed onto my arm. His eyes were swimming with tears, and it broke my heart. I couldn’t help but still have feelings for him. Even though I hated him, I loved him too.
"Lizzy, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to say those things. I didn’t mean them, and I know you’ll never forgive me, but can you please listen to what I have to say. I was stupid okay? I thought I needed to fit in with the cool crowd and they told me I needed to kill our friendship in order to be a part of their group, so that’s what I did, but after I said the things I did, I felt like complete crap. I cried for a week straight and barely ate. My mom rushed me to the ER Liz, I almost died. I know you were in a worse state, which is why the texts, and calls, and letters, and emails were sent to you. I hurt the most important person in my life and I can never change that. You meant, and still mean more to me than Sam ever will because I love you Liz… Always have, always will."
He went to walk away, but I held onto him.
"At least wait until the rain dies down. No use to get any wetter than you already are."
He smile at me , and linked our hands together. We sat there in complete silence until the rain let up. We looked at the time and saw it read 10:00 pm. Kian let go of my hand, and I crossed my hands over my chest as we made our way back to the house. The minute we walked inside, Sam had kian by the neck and was screaming at him. Jc and Ricky were chiming in as I let out a high pitch scream.
"SHUT THE HELL UP ALL OF YOU GOD DAMN IT. Kian and I talked. All is forgiven now get out of our damn business. The past is in the past and y’all need to not be pissy with him okay? And Kian, I love you too."
I didn’t care what I had said earlier, or how confused any of the guys were, I kissed Kian and smiled as he kissed me back. My hands tangled into his hair and his laid on my back and brought me closer to him. I pulled away after a minute and closed my eyes as I rested my head on Kians.
"Is anyone else as confused as me, or is this confusing to everyone?"
Ricky asked and everyone, including Kian and myself just laughed awkwardly.
"Well this was an eventful day don’t you all agree? We finally meet Sam’s cousin, she punches kian, the two of them are gone for hours, then they come back, she defends him against the three of us, and then kisses him. And that’s what you viewers missed on ‘life with o2l’"
I flicked Jc off as he talked to snapchat off Ricky’s phone and kissed Kian again.
"Mr. Lawley, will you be my boyfriend? I miss my bestfriend and I’m not waiting for you to ask me out."
"Still the same old demanding Lizz, but I wouldn’t want anyone else to be by your side."